I was feeling nervous and unsettled in my dream. It felt as it I was at my old high school or something very similar. I remember walking out onto a theater stage, and in the audience were all these people that I knew. More specifically work people and close friends. I came out onto the stage as if I were going to give a speech of some sort, but then when I started talking I was talking as if I was making an Infertility Vlog for Youtube, and then I realized it so I became embarrassed and then changed the subject to some sort of going away speech. I felt kind of mad at these people in front of me, I felt a sense of bitterness towards them. I'm not really sure, but I just wanted to get away from them. While I was talking I could tell that no one was paying attention, or I felt they wanted me to hurry up with what I was saying. I felt so weird. I finished talking and left, no one got up to say goodbye, they just looked at me. I don't remember exactly what I said, but it had something to do with "I hope I can get back to you soon, I will miss you all"... Then... I was getting onto a large boat or something, but I felt like I was in a hurry, maybe like I was trying to run from something, or maybe I was hiding. I was waiting in the lobby and waiting for Josh, I had to leave and I was afraid that I would not see him. I got on this boat/cruise ship type thing, and as soon as I looked out the window I could see the lobby area below. I saw Josh sitting there so sad, I felt sad, I wanted to run to him so I panicked and wanted to get off, but I wasn't able... I opened the window and balled up some napkins, I threw them out the window at him trying to catch his attention but I missed him... I could feel the amazing power behind the boat engines and were speeding off.
And that was it.
Can someone say cray-cray?!?!